You want to know about me? Reading any of my writing will probably give you a better picture of my internal state than if I tried to explain it here. However you are here. I was born in Utah and lived there for many years. I have been writing since I could hold a pen or pencil, I have taken breaks here and there because I didn’t think I was “good enough”, usually measuring myself against other people my given age at the time. I have lived and worked all over the world. I have met amazing and wonderful people.
I am quite settled into my new surroundings, I live in the Pacific Northwest now, about 2 hours away from the coast. My family and I used to vacation up here and it seemed a natural place to set down roots. I visit Portland often as that is where the people are, when I am in the mood for people, and my good friends live there.
For full transparency I will tell you that I have always had a darkness lurking just beneath the surface of my consciousness, I have gotten close to taking my own life because of the demons that I house within myself. When I was 20 it was either time to end it or get help. I couldn’t end it, I loved my Mother too much, so I got help. Thus giving me the nice label “BiPolar Type II”, which is what I got treated for and found some success in life and relationships. That was until the last few years where I have gotten another label “Borderline Personality Disorder”. I am now getting treatment for that, I have high hopes.
I do not tell you this for sympathy or help, but simply because it is something that affects my everyday life and well being. I figure if I want to support others with mental illness, best is to let it be known that I too suffer.
I hope you enjoy my writing. It takes a toll, but it is one that I gladly pay.
― Philip K. Dick
“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”